When I talked about sex, it was often assumed that I didn’t know about sexual abuse, that I didn’t know about violence against women, and that because I chose to celebrate a passion or to describe a passion, I was immune from the anguish of being a woman in this society. [...] My whole life’s work has been saying—along with others—that we cannot only have an anatomy of victimization. We are more than that. We must have an anatomy of desire, of celebration. We must not assume that because a woman speaks about passion she doesn’t know pain.

—Joan Nestle, “A celebration of butch-femme identities in the lesbian community,” A Persistent Desire: A Femme/Butch Reader p. 462

Rogan: Joan Nestle was talking about the power of transgressive female desire, but the quote also rings with me as a trans multiple. As there’s a push within our own ranks towards identifying with trauma, this idea that the only “respectable” way to be or become multiple is to be (preferably sexually) victimized, and as there’s a political push to see trans people’s very existence as sexually abusive to children, I have found power in shamelessly depicting my erotic desires through art.

It took years to reach this point; sexual violence is like a black hole that sucks everything into itself. Every time I write about sex, including this post, I have to delete constant digressions about the damned black hole. Mac and I had to set a rule that Multi Orgasmic would NOT discuss abuse because otherwise it would’ve been about damn near nothing else! And obviously it was a smart choice; Multi Orgasmic is my #2 ebook bestseller. People are clearly hankering for this stuff; they just don’t say so in public, mostly, because true, honest desire is scary. When you want something that badly (sexual or not), that is a vulnerable place to be in, and that vulnerability by nature is uncomfortable to witness. So we ridicule it, trying to end that vulnerability, that honesty, so we don’t have to look ourselves in the face.

If heartbreak HAS been a part of one’s multiplicity, it’s natural to go through a stage where the grief consumes everything. But like a necessary burn, it’s meant to leave a more fertile land behind, ready for new growth. Eventually, you gotta have something besides suffering to hang your sense of self on. Eventually, you need something good to fight FOR, not just something evil to fight AGAINST.

For me, that good stuff includes banging my headmates and making stuff like Multi Orgasmic. Think what it might be for you. What gives you that soul-satisfying feeling? What waters your heartflowers? What is that good thing to fight for?

What brings you to that scary place of wanting?

Hey everybody, it's that time again: time to vote for which stuff gets the LiberaPay/Patreon money this month!

As always, anyone can vote (please do!), but LiberaPay and Patreon patrons get double weight for their votes.  (Due to Patreon's porn purges, I really encourage you to use LiberaPay, if you get a choice.) If you want to see the blurbs for any of these works, those are here!  (You can also leave your requests there; requesting a story or essay is always free!) If you don't have a DW and so can't do the poll, that's okay; just leave your vote in the comments below; anon comments are turned on.

Which works gets the money, and thus posted this month?  YOU CHOOSE, readers!

Due to Dreamwidth having to block views from all Mississippi users, I'm going to have to fucking take every single story and essay on this damn website and mirror and back it up on healthymultiplicity.com.

Mississippi's requirements are strict:

This act applies only to a digital service provider who provides a digital service that:
(a) Connects users in a manner that allows users to socially interact with other users on the digital service;
(b) Allows a user to create a public, semi-public or private profile for purposes of signing into and using the digital service; and
(c) Allows a user to create or post content that can be viewed by other users of the digital service, including sharing content on:
(i) A message board;
(ii) A chat room; or
(iii) A landing page, video channel or main feed that presents to a user content created and posted by other users.

So this includes Dreamwidth (and all other Livejournal clones), Fanfiction.net, an AOL Instant Messenger chat room, a forum, presumably Patreon and itch.io... but oddly probably not 4chan, since that has no profiles! healthymultiplicity.com is kinda my only option, because the site allows for no social interaction.

I am very sorry for the inconvenience. Having my work accessible to the public is extremely important to me, but man, the past couple months have been pretty rough when it comes to politicians and payment processors getting between me and my willing readers!

This was the winner of the LiberaPay/Patreon poll this month! Enjoy your fluffy comics!

Rogan: Okay, I know I owe responses to folks, but am kinda blurgh, so I promise I haven't forgotten y'all, it's just been a busy couple weeks!

So, thanks to erinptah, yesterday I learned about ChatGPT psychosis. As I linkjumped through the rabbit hole, one thing that stood out to me was how shocked people seemed to be that folks "with no prior history of mental illness" were falling into it. And I was like, "Well, yeah, of course, why is that surprising?" but I realized that other folks may not know this, so let me tell you why ChatGPT Psychosis happens to "normal people."

( The human mind is a delicate thing. You gotta be nice to it. )